Miss Jess

There is a life force behind each of us. This energy propelling us toward

connection,

expansion,

experience.

It whispers sweet nothings into our inner ear and sometimes we are listening and we follow and sometimes we are listening and we choose to ignore. And sometimes, the urge and the feeling to move towards that which is beckoning is so deep that it feels as though we might die if we do not get to know it, intimately. Within that intimacy, we open. Through opening we reveal the authentic nature of the energy that connects us all.

It is here that we truly give

our selves

our selves

as the other selves

the opportunity to love,

to entwine,

to rise. 

To feel empowered in what is rightfully ours. In our bodies, in our hearts, in our minds, and in what happens when we find a way to turn all of them on, simultaneously. This is where true purity lies. It is not in hiding, in staying safe, in keeping it all to yourself. It is in allowing yourself to be truly seen. It is in trusting this force to move you into the places you need to go, surrendering to the experience, and allowing your senses to lead you to the next doorway. Sometimes you will be without sight, listen. Sometimes you will be without understanding, feel. Go where it is leading you and you will find the way to open. 

Thank you for honoring me with this session, Jess.

You are the map and the destination. 

Thank you also to

MUAH: Josephine Love

Art and Location: Adrienne Stein

Josephine Love

 

I have been working really hard on reorganizing my life and simplifying (Josephine has been an amazing role model for this.)  I am really sinking into what I value and letting go of the rest. One of those things being connection to the goddess. Is it obvious, yet? I feel like it is my work to continue to create space for us all to sink into the flow and surrender that is available there, within that quality of energy. One way I am working with feeling safe to do that is through these really, seemingly, masculine moves. I organize myself, I take action as soon as I think about it, I schedule in time to do the things I know my heart needs to do, I act with authority over myself and take charge to stay aligned with my dreams.  One of those dreams being the commitment I make to this blog. This blog was created as a way for me to encourage myself, my personal progress, to check in, to connect, and to have a platform to share. It is a place for me to witness my heart grow and heal and open.

My dream is to organize my time and my flow enough to show up three time a week here.  

As I move into what I truly value I am inspired by the connections I hold with the women in my life. The depths we reach and the love we share is something I hold very close to my heart. With that, I am now going to be presenting these women as a means to connect them to those who wish to know them, to encourage them to keep growing and showing, and to also honor the goddess that I see within the connection I have to them. These are my mirrors and I am so thankful to witness the beauty that each one of them have offered to my life. I am thinking this will be a Wednesday feature and I am looking forward to the way this encourages me to plan my shoots accordingly, to create space to be inspired, and to create a place to truly see the soul of a woman! With that being said...

This is Josephine.

I am pretty good at reaching out to people who attract me. In the age of technology the social butterfly in me has found ways to flutter as an advanced being in ways I never would have had the opportunity to before. I am grateful for technology and It was through the flight of my curiosity that Josephine and I first connected. I reached out to her to see if she was interested in working with me and I will never forget the way it felt when I saw her for the first time. She had a visible triple goddess moon tattooed on her and I knew in that moment there was a connection beyond my initial intrigue pulling us together.

We have been playing and co-creating for the last year and it has been such a joy to expand in heart and mind and friendship together. She has contributed to my personal growth through creative play, through humor and softness, and through encouragement to step out of who I think I am, to stay open,  and to not be afraid to recreate myself. She helps me to see the places where my true beauty lies, to find comfort in my sexuality, and to surrender to the luxurious folds of my belly. I have benefited greatly watching her grow a stunning new and improved set of wings over this last year. I see her freeing herself to fly in ways that only the sky holds limits for. She leaves in a couple days for a two month adventure with her cat, Elvira, and two beautiful children. This is one of the the many challenging steps she is taking in making space for the incredible goddess she always has been and is also still becoming through her strong decision making, risk taking, and deep heart healing. She dances through her fear, faces the unknown with grace, and takes ease in change.  I am so excited for all that is occurring for and around her, for the new ways in which she is supporting her life and her children. I am so excited to witness the creation that will rise from this place. I am so grateful to be a part of her journey, to benefit from the confidence she exudes, the style she embodies, and the ways she sways through the maiden, the mother, and the crone.

 

If you are looking for an incredible make-up artist///raw beauty invoker , check out her website Here

 

I love you, Josephine! ( Or should I call you, Shannon!") 

The Dreamthieves

 

Searching
As you look up into the sky
Heaven's above
Reflect
The Starlight in your eyes.

Moving like a shadow
Disembodied and alone
Somewhere in the darkness
Beyond the dusk
Before the dawn.

Dreaming
Beneath the velvet
Cloak of night
Let go of your fear
And feel your spirit
Taking flight.

Lurking by the roadside
Hungry eyes and hearts of stone
Don't stray from the pathway
Until you see the light of home.

Moving like a shadow
Disembodied and alone
Somewhere in the darkness
Beyond the dusk
Before the dawn.

    Model: Amanda Steever of Baby Brains

    Amaranthine

    These are photographs from a  fully immersive and multidisciplinary performance and installation piece by Helena Protopapas, Jake Hangen,  Lost Sugar Disco Artists, Tiffany ECHO Wolf and Tifani Truelove,  and Haylee Warner and Co.

    Helena's vision was brought to the Lost Sugar Disco and performed twice during the month of July in Columbia, Pa. 

    Since then Helena and her husband have moved on to live and perform in Japan. She just released her Patreon and through your support there, she and her husband will continue to perform large, immersive installations. Check it out and show her your support through subscribing and following along on her journey!!

     

    Hell Hound

    She was a gypsy woman
    She was as cold as the day, yeah
    She said I'd got it coming
    And then she took me away, yeah

    She took me through the shadows of her sunken dream
    I thought it's over for me, she wasn't all she seemed

    She took my hand and then she started to speak
    She told me she'd had the call
    With eyes of fire that were burning my soul
    She looked into her crystal ball
    She read my fortune then she read my mind
    She didn't like my thoughts at all

    A look book for Hellhound Jewelry.

    MUAH by: Josephine Love

    Wardrobe by: Cactus Collective and Toile

    Models: Cheri Wines and Rahkia Misun-Mitchumi

    Smoke and Mirrors: Kaitlin Wines

    Taurus Moon

    In honor of this sensual full moon that is upon us, I wanted to share a few photos from a recent boudoir collaboration I did with Josephine Love and Britta Lipka. These images were used as a gift for Britta's then, husband to be, which she gave to him before the wedding. This day was so beautiful as we spent it preparing looks, playing in Josephine's closet, and allowing ourselves to reflect on the flow, expression, and empowerment of the divine feminine. What it means to embody the goddess. 

    I find myself consistently working within the sensual and sexual nature of my being. I am finding ways to truly understand my sexuality in a society that distorts it with guilt, shame, and objectification. I am always looking for my own conclusions on how it feels to be in my sex, to adorn my body, to seduce myself and my lover, and the nature of truly being an embodiment of the energy of divinity through creation. I think this shoot is a perfect example of what that looks like. I am open to what feels natural and good. I don't hold anything back and I allow myself to receive through the pleasure of beauty, desire, and the material experience of this existence in alignment with heart and soul. I flow with the expression of my being. I can give more to my partner and to my life when I orient from this place. I feel more myself, more at ease. I can orient from a place that truly allows the goddess to be seen. It is always so beautiful to watch my partner receive of the feminine when I am truly orienting from this place as well. He lights up when he sees my truth, when I express myself fully, and when I allow the uniqueness of my personal desire and dance to move through me. There is no shame there and I think one of my greatest endeavors while on this earth is to truly help women relax into who they are as sexual beings. ( Not that Britta needs any help with that! HOLY.)

    May you all feel into the energy of this beautiful, abundant Taurus Moon. It is a time of mystical and magical love and abundance. Look for the depth of your being, express yourself fully from that place, and receive the support of your earth. You are allowed to experience pleasure. You are allowed to experience connection. You are allowed to be here! Do it all with your whole being and show the world the truth of who you are as divinity. The energy of our sex is the energy of our creation. Surrender yourself to it. 

     

     

    Samhain

    I am sitting here thinking about Samhain and the place it holds in my life. In years past I have done more around the energy externally. I have built altars, created ceremony, found somewhere to externalize the celebration, but this year, it all seems a little different to me. It is presenting itself differently. I went out and shopped for a slow cooker recipe I found, I filled the trick or treat bowl with candy,  made the call to sell the tickets we had bought to see Goblin tonight because it feels like something is keeping me here, in my home, and I am listening. Perhaps I am listening more than I ever have before.  The voices I have been hearing  are angry and secluded and in pain but I am listening. I am staying home for them and I am listening to all of the parts  that want to hide in the basement behind the masks of suffering, of separateness, of ego and I am hoping that through me, through my heart that they feel heard. That they can sense how beautiful even the really ugly parts are as through those really painful, really dark places, I am able to locate the source of the wound. I am able to apply the healing. I can feel the cold grips of old values falling away and a new understanding of my worth here on earth revealing itself. Through the hearing, through the healing. The veils have been lifted in ways I have never experienced before allowing me to get a real good luck at the ugliest parts and when they show me their rotting, decaying face, I am gently tucking small roses behind their ears. There is beauty everywhere. 

    Sylvia Chang

    I was talking with a friend a few days ago about how sometimes people come into your life and you can tell it is angelic by the way that you immediately connect. That is what it was like when I met my angel, Sylvie. She immediately felt like my family. It is her birthday this weekend and I am reflecting so deeply on this vibrant and inspiring soul. She is otherworldly. She is both raw truth and glittery illusion. She exists in pale pink, sultry musk, and the glow of the moon. She is familiar, serpent, and queen. I am reflecting on her exuberant laughter and expressive eyes. The ways she will empty her purse on the floor, invite you to her nail polish party, and ask you to spill your guts on the carpet. I am reflecting on her honesty and her grace. Her endless love and loyalty. Her ferocious and protective nature, her just and honorable heart, and the way she loves when she feels safe. I  have never met a force like Sylvia before and I truly admire the strength, the abandon, the fearlessness of her character. There are no true words for the nature of this being but I really do love her. 

    Sylvia Chang,

    I hope this year brings you all of the love, support, and kindness you deserve. I hope it is filled with the best dresses, the perfect polish, Charlie perfume, all of the virtual stimulation you can get, a ton of money, and a deep understanding of your worth and your value to this world. Thank you for showing me mine. You are priceless. Happy Birthday, baby. 

    Forever and Always,

    Tifani Truelove 

    Helena&Wyatt

    Helena and Wyatt believe in love. I remember the first time Helena told me, with giant heart shaped eyes, that he was "the one".  She told me that she knew that this was it and that it was going to last forever. I smiled and I believed her the way I believe people in love. Then I met him and I saw the way their energy danced together, the way time stopped around them, and the way that they just seemed to fit. Romantic abstractions, a story beyond mind, as it was only a few short months after she first introduced me that they felt confident enough within what they had found to marry. A simple and intimate ceremony for family followed by well wishes as they embark on their next big adventure; building a life together in Japan. This is what love is like though. It changes everything, expands the possibilities, and takes you to the places you were afraid to go alone. 

    Best wishes to you both and see you soon! 

    Check out the rest of this set on Sage&Swan !

    Lily X Truelove

    I remember back to school shopping with my mom. It was always my favorite time of year as I got the chance to reinvent myself, to show the rest of my peer group what I learned and the ways I was transformed over the summer. I have always reserved the right to be whoever I wanted to be, day to day, which in turn has resulted in a very eclectic wardrobe.  Lilith Rentzel and I have always related in that way. We started playing dress up together a few years ago and have really fed each other creatively. We have recently combined forces in a stand at Redeux Market and hope to bring a curation of vintage items to our community that inspire self expression, adornment, and the freedom to play!  

    Visit our stand and keep your eyes peeled for more great looks as our vision has just begun to expand!!!

    A special thanks to artist extraordinaire, Abby Landis, for being our lovely subject! 

    The Ones Who Stay

    I have known Kristen and Brent since jr. high. Watching them fall in love as teenagers and hold that love into adulthood has been one of the greatest gifts of my life. To watch true love stay and to watch it flourish in honesty, authenticity, and truth is something a lot of people don't get to see.  Now, I get to watch this love grow into three and it is so beautiful to witness her holding this child in the kind of realness that somehow exists for her beside grace, simultaneously. To watch Brent in his vulnerability is to watch him rise into what it means to be a father and I am beyond honored to share a part in the lives of these people. They hold a bar of unconditional love and acceptance like no other and what is being created through it is going to change the world. 

    I am so excited for you both and thank you for the opportunity to archive something so beautiful ( Seriously Kristen, WTF) and so important. All hail, child Gregory!!!!  

    Walking for Water

     My father recently got his DNA tested. Turns out he is less Irish than we thought, more Italian than we realized, and also, like every person living on the planet, his DNA can be traced back to one woman in eastern Africa who lived 150,000 years ago. He is still carrying .05% of her DNA.  This gene, connecting all of us, in the mother. 

    I observed this mother quietly as Victoria directed her girls into the water. My heart was touched as I watched the joy of the children making contact with it and the expressions of community as I watched the  women move with grace and caution into position, staying close to each other for support. There was something so rich in these small moments. In the things that we all share. The earth in our flesh and bone, the fires that ignite and transform us, the breath that supports and entwines us, and the waters that are constantly cycling for our survival, nourishing and cleansing us. The place where we all meet. Much like the textiles Victoria chose in these looks, we come together in a tapestry of beautiful pattern around the water. We have all had to seek nourishment to sustain life on this planet. We are richer, more interesting, and much stronger, when we walk in our search for life together. 

    Victoria Kageni is a designer from Kenya, now living and working in York, Pa. She is dedicated to educating and building diverse community. Check out her website for more information or visit her shop, Gusa by Victoria, to get involved. 

    ////Amaranthine/////

    This Saturday night the Lost Sugar Disco is presenting an immersive installation that we could not be more excited about. Join us for four distinct video installations by Jake Hangen woven alongside sonic improvisations by Helena Protopapas. We got our hands on about 15 projectors, an empty warehouse, a dance troupe, and a ton of mattresses.  Relax and sink into the union of color, movement, and sound.

    We are hosting this as two separate performances. The first and earlier performance is family oriented and children are welcomed!!! We are hosting the later and second performance as a church style lock in to encourage those traveling  to stay the night and wake up with us. You are not required to stay the night but we would love to host you with fresh fruit in the morning and some down tempo beats by Joe Martin.  

    Check out the facebook event for more info and to RSVP. 

    Thin Air

    My Summer has been extremely full. Among the weddings I am booking with Sage & Swan, preparing for the installation Tiffany and I are installing at Burning Man, and trying to fit in healing sessions I said yes when the the Parliament gallery in York asked me to do a show on tattoos. In the true state of YES I worked my ass of in the time that I had to make that happen. I wish I was better at reflecting on my process and sharing it because there was so much beauty in making the show real and the body of work that is forming as a result of it. It is hanging now until the end of August. If you are interested in the bodies progress go check it out.  

    One of my current goals is to get better at making this blog a consistent and honest place.  I would like to actually keep track of what is happening for me. There are so many thoughts and processes occurring for me all of the time and I hope to be able to witness and reflect on them here...for whatever or whoever it will serve. To be honest, I don't even know if people look at blogs so maybe it will be for me alone, and well, that will be totally fine too. I need a place to organize myself. 

     So, the Summer Look book was super late as a result of poor time management. I have a tendency to get lost in chaos. I will say yes to a million things at once and do it with all of my heart but without any real organization in the process. It can be really frustrating and I recognize it as something I must embrace about myself and also refine as to prevent future stress. I am grateful for graceful collaborators and those that understand what it means to be both an artist and a boss ass bitch. Every day, I am getting better at the game.  YOGA HELPS.

    I am really happy with the way this look book came together as there was a last minute model cancellation and it changed the direction, totally. These two came through in a flash.  A lot of the jewelry in these looks was provided by Hell Hound Jewelry and if you aren't currently following the cool shit that she is doing, I suggest you check it out. All of the clothing was provided by the amazing vendors of Redeux Market in York. One of the most amazing collections of vintage items around.  I am also so grateful for Missy Jones, who owns the magical goats featured in this look book and granted us access to this incredible location.  If you are looking for a designer that has her shit together and knows how to run it, you just found her.   If you want to see the rest of the looks or the goats in this  lookbook , check out Redeux's blog!

     Anyway, thank you for looking and like I said, here is to hoping that I get better at being consistent here..and well, everywhere! I am really practicing.  xoxoxo